*Name Here*,
Greetings in the name of Saint Thomas Aquinas!
Surprise! Haha. I just thought of droppin' you an e-mail para maiba naman ang feel sa mga bagay-bagay. Besides, I explain myself rather better in writing than in other methods of communication. Haha. Anyways, kamusta ka na? I haven't heard anything from you in days kaya nangangamusta and napadaan lang ako. Haha.
Anyways ulet, it has been a month since I've come to know you, *Name Here*. A month of mixed and complex emotions siya, actually. But, generally masaya. Up until now, ambivalent ako sa feelings ko about us: minsan, naiinis ako sa fact na we can't see each other more often due to our situation and, if ever we do squeeze some stolen time, it has a specific deadline that really frustrates me. At times naman, super masaya ako sa situation natin, especially when we're together. Kahit na short and fleeting encounter lang sa car mo or sa mall, okay na 'ko. A kiss and/or a hug from you dispels all of my frustrations back inside my hallow and small brain. Haha.
But, despite this contradicting feelings, I'm happy that I've known you. I'm learning a lot about myself from this thing we have, whatever this is, and it is very fruitful and enlightening. Wherever this might lead us sa future, I honestly don't know. But I seriously hope that it'll be for the best of both worlds, yours and mine.
I like you, *Name Here*. And, katulad ng nasabi ko sa'yo before, if given the chance to know you better, I'd most probably love you (although nasabi ko na ata yun sa'yo sa YM or something). I just hope that I would be given that kind of opportunity sometime in the future. *fingers crossed* Also, I know that I may have said some things na painful, narrow-minded-ish and stupid last week, and for that I am deeply sorry. I'm not taking them back, though. I just want to be honest with you.
I just hope that you feel the same way...
Sige. I took much of your time na and this drama queen thing of mine seriously sucks! Haha. Grabe!
In Saint Thomas,
Juan Paulo G. Gultiano, RN
Note: I sent this email about a month ago to someone very dear and special and, as I was rummaging and reading through my sent folder, I noticed that this message seriously came from a good side of my brain and definitely spoke what my head was shouting all along. Nice one, if I say so myself, thank you. Nevertheless, what's done is done. I can't mend things that are not supposed to be mend, right?
Coffee, anyone?
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