After 3 weeks of pain-staking and non-stop expedition to the Camp Emilio Aguinaldo in Quezon City for my Neuro-Psych exam, which I paid from my own pocket, the head of the said department told me this morning that my personality was "categorically" inappropriate for service. Blah!
She clearly pointed the following items:
- Too sensitive
- Dependent
- Prone to Anxiety that may lead to work dysfunction
- Over confident
- Unrealistic and too much idealism, thereby losing sight of reality
- Unpractical
- Does not act naturally
- Erratic personality results
- Always makes it a point to impress others
What even made the whole ordeal unbearable was the fact that I wasn't given the chance to defend myself. She did not even give me the smallest opportunity to talk and say something that would justify my unique personality. She earnestly went on an endless rampage that seriously degraded my individuality. Grrr!
I have nothing against them, seriously. The armed forces have been doing their very best to serve and protect the country since way back when. Its just that I didn't expect that I'd get rejected because of the way I project myself to the people that I'm supposed to impress. Maybe it is because of the way I talk (I sometimes radiate the notion that I'm an American due to my accent, thanks to IELTS and TeleTech) or the way that I dress and carry myself in public (dress to impress, people).
Anyways, I can't do anything about it. I asked the Nursing Corps. Office about the neurotic situation and they told me that it is irreparable and final. Ouch! To think that after all that sweat and effort, I'm still unemployed. Blah!
Overall, the said experience is a profound wake-up call for me that I cannot please everyone with my US-ish accent. Also, I think that I need to define and reflect upon myself further just to be sure about how I launch myself to others. Of course, at the end of the day, I will call the shots. This is my life. No more and no less.
As the protesters outside the Camp would bluntly put it,
In English: AFP EXECUTIONERS!
Coffee, anyone?
bagsk k lng.kaya ka nagkakaganyan.
ReplyDeleteI don't think your US-ish accent (as you put it) was one of the reasons you failed to get in the Nurse Corps. When I first came here in the UK our Nursing Manager and other Senior nurses told me that they are very impressed with the way I speak in English. They knew English wasn't our first language but they were in awe as I apparently speak it with an American accent. As a former Military nurse, I don't think it was something to do with the way you dressed ( to impress). Dressing appropriately is actually a requirement as it would show if you have got the" Military Bearing". There is more to it and I suggest you discover that first....or maybe yuo were not meant to be. Goodluck anyway
ReplyDeleteThere is always a second chance,im glad that your not against with the nurse corps,the organization has its own prestige and good service with the arm forces a very long time ago. if you failed for the first time i guess you can have another chance to try,by the time your one of the nurse corps family you will be realized that it is not an easy to be one.... i know you can do it next time..goodluck!
ReplyDeleteSometimes we are very confident of what we did and we failed to realize that there is such a small thing that we forgot, thats why we cant achieve what we want in our life. Its really hard to be a member of the nurse corps and i can attest to that because i became a member of such prestige organization. Try to look on the brighter side of it maybe your really not meant to be one. God have other plan for you. But if you really want to be a military nurse, why give yourself another try/chance. Goodluck!
ReplyDeleteang afp nurse corps ay puro kagaguhan. all of them are rotten trash.
ReplyDeleteE craulo ka cguro kya d k tnanggap..
ReplyDeletehehehehe... you know y di tinatanggap mga gaya mo sa nurse corps kasi baka maging liability ka in the future... see, ngayon pa nga lang na bumagsak ka ganyan ka na magreact.... maybe you can join the npa's na lang... joke..
ReplyDeletehahaha..
ReplyDeletepati ugali american accent din...hahaha